The Wants vs. Needs

Okay so I've been dying to do some shopping. Just ask my mom. I begged and begged her to let me go.

Here's the problem... I have no money. If you look at my bank statement, I'm actually in the hole. By $70. Pathetic, I know! I'm 19 years old and in debt.

I feel the need to go shopping. There have been so many changes just in the last couple of weeks that I feel the next step is changing... my clothes...?

I'm sick of my closet, I have a hard time getting dressed every single morning, I'm tired of playing the "What Shirt Do I Hate the Least?" game. I miss playing the game "Raid Your Roommates' Closets!" ;)

So since I feel like I'm fixated on this game thing, we're going to play another one called "Wants VS. Needs"

WANTS:

• I want an unlimited shopping spree... no price too much, all the clothes, bags, shoes I want!
• A personal shopper to do the walking for me, I'll just sit in the changing room while she grabs the cutest clothes from the shelves.
• A professional to do my 'do. My hair has some pretty nasty roots if you ask me.
• A gym pass. I miss the Activity Center at Snow! I thought I would never say that, but I really miss the elliptical, weights, and bikes! I'm definitely going to be utilizing the AC more next semester.
• I want Grumblebee (my awesome Chevy Lumina Transformer car) to use less gas... She's getting to be really expensive.
• I want more country music on my computer! I'm tired of Pandora playing the same "Today's Country" songs OVER AND OVER.

NEEDS:

• I need to save all the money I can for college. I hate mooching off my parents for every little thing.
• I need to start chipping in on the food here at Kent and Kim's, I am always hungry but I hate eating their food! They're much too nice to stop me from eating it all. I feel so bad!
• I need my bangs cut, JUST my bangs... if you know anyone that'll cut 'em for free PULEEZE let me know!
• I need to start eating healthier and stop drinking RedBull (even though it's the nectar of the gods.) I also need to start going to bed and waking up earlier. Oooo! Maybe even start running or doing some push-ups or sit-ups!
• I need to realize that I have to pay for certain things, like gas, because that's sadly a part of growing up.
• I need to stop worrying about what I don't have and start focusing on what I DO have! I'm very blessed.

Thanks for playing "Wants VS. Needs." The Inner Battle of a Poor College Student

I'm positive I'm a dork. But hey, who doesn't NEED a dork in their life? ;)

I've slept on it...

Okay so now that I've slept on it, I've decided men still suck. :) But, I've also decided maybe I just need to grow up a little... I've had my rebellious moment and now it's gone.

This summer I'm going to work. WORK WORK WORK! Maybe I'll grow up a bit during this time. I'm not going to focus on guys at all this summer or next semester! My goal is to get a 4.0 gpa since I only got a 3.2 this semester.

I don't need a guy to make me happy! I do need friends though, so if you'd like to submit an application, go ahead haha!

I enjoy this picture quite a lot!

But in all honesty, life happens, right? I've made mistakes and I've learned from them. I live too much in my past... Now it's time to start looking forward to my future! :) I've set some goals and now I've got to take action. I have a feeling this is going to be a great summer!

There are no words, other than... Men Suck.

Okay, since my readers are 99.9% family I'm hoping you guys won't judge me... deal? I mean we're family, you have to love me! For the .01% that aren't family, go ahead and judge me...

DISCLAIMER: The following content is a display of my WALK OF SHAME weeks... Give me a break, I'm young and in college! I guarantee you that I could have been doing a lot worse things haha!

(I haven't written in a while so I'm sorta filling you in... by the guys I've kissed in recent weeks...)

Alright

WEEK ONE (April 8, 2011)- {R}

I had been hanging out with my next door neighbors' friend, we'll call him... "Rick" (no, that's not really his name...). We were hanging out next door but it was boring so I decided to call it a night. Being a gentleman he walked my to my door... literally 2 feet away. Unfortunately this was one of those bi-polar Utah weather nights... ick. Snow falling like crazy! Rick decided it would be funny to play in the snow then put his hands down my back. I was kinda annoyed, but hey! He was snuggling up to me! Finally he pulled me in and kissed me. Yeah... it was a good one :)

BUT Rick and I did not last long, we started getting more and more distant and I when asked about a potential relationship. He said, "I'm gonna be working this summer so... it's kind of bad timing." 'Aight, I feel that's a legitimate reason... Long distance SUCKS! So today was his birthday and I decided to write happy birthday on his facebook page... Weird... He's now listed as "In a relationship" Imagine my surprise...

WEEK TWO (April 16, 2011)- {Br}

"Brian" went to Snow fall semester, but not spring. He was the DJ right after me at the KAGE and he and I would flirt in passing. A few weeks prior to 4/16/11 he asked me on a date! I was totally game and excited... he was like the 2nd official date I had been asked on!

He had never seen Twilight before so I forced him to watch every single one of them with me. We got through the first, we were cuddling by the time Bella figured out he was a vampire... Then we got to the second movie, he kissed me by the time Jacob ripped his shirt off.

Well Brian was cool, but we lost contact quickly. He doesn't have texting and he got rid of his Facebook... And I figure if he hasn't called, why should I?

WEEK THREE (April 18, 2011 & April 22, 2011)- {C} & {Be}

So the last chance True Badger night was the next Monday. My roommate set me up with "Chris". I had never met the kid. It was super awkward. How do you say goodbye? "Well, thanks for makin' me a True Badger (in my case, the second time) ... uh... goodnight! Nice meeting you!" *Hug* "...Uh yeah, bye..."

"Ben" is my friend's ex-boyfriend. He's also one of my good friends... I honestly think he could be gay. Well we were both losers on our last Friday night at Snow, we watched "Parks and Recreation" and as a joke, we started cuddling. Then somehow we started talking about how weird it would be if we kissed, then I kissed him just to see what he'd do. No progress on that, I still suspect him to be gay...

WEEK FOUR (April 28, 2011)-{M}

This one really REALLY ticks me off. The sting is still going on, as I type. Ugh! Boys! They are so stupid!

"Mitch" and I had met on a couple occasions through out the school year. He showed interest in me first, for sure! He told my roommate Ashley that he wanted to go out with me sometime. Mitch told Ash that he liked that I was a good girl. Well Thursday was my last night in Ephraim! YAY! There was a huge bonfire going on that night and we went together. Before we left, Mitch played guitar for me (dang it! one of my weaknesses!). On our way out I realized I hadn't put make-up on yet, so I started doing it and Mitch was like, "Tiffany you are so beautiful, you don't even need make-up!" We went to the bonfire...fast forward... went back to my apartment and watched "Tangled." He had his arm around me and said, "Don't we just fit perfectly?"

PAUSE!

Okay I really didn't even like this guy that much! I still had feelings for Rick at this time but at least he wasn't a douche, right? The thing is, I like a chase! Mitch was wayyyy too easy for me to actually be into him right away... he was trying too hard.

PLAY!

So he kissed my hand and I was like Wha? Weird but okay...? He did it again and this time I turned around to give him a weird look and he kissed me! COME ON! He had potential but totally lost it, right then and there. Grrr...

Okay so the next day I was all packed and ready to leave and he came to give me a goodbye kiss. Success for him. He texted me like everyday and I blew him off. Then I asked him to hang out a couple days ago but he was working. I called him yesterday to hang out, he didn't even answer my call. I looked him up on Facebook and he was listed... you guessed it... "In a Relationship."

SERIOUSLY??? Couldn't he have at least given me a heads up or something?

Simply put: I think men or BOYS, in this case, are idiots. I've learned my lesson. Do NOT kiss boys! Even if they seem like decent ones, they really aren't. No really, they're not. Dating is pointless at Snow College. I'm sick of the RM's or "mature" PreMi's that think us 18 and 19 year old girls at Snow are the immature, dramatic ones! They are just as bad, if not worse! At least we (18 & 19 year old girls) can own up to being immature and dramatic!

I'm officially giving up.

BOYS: 1

TIFF: -5 (white flag)