Absence makes the heart grow... more impatient??

Okay guys, you know how people say that 2 years "flies by" and "it'll be over before you know it," etc...? Well, that's a LIE. If you're excited for something, it DRAGS. It's been the longest two years ever.

1st- I graduated in May of 2010. Wow, has it really only been 2 years? I feel like I'm older than that... Maybe it's the fact that I haven't lived at home for 2 years and haven't seen that many high school friends since... I don't know... but it has NOT gone "with the blink of an eye."

2nd- In August of 2010 I went to Snow College. I graduate this May... I LOVE Snow, but I feel like I've been here wayyy longer than 2 years, especially when I look back. I remember having all nighters with my roommies from last year and it seems like a million years ago.

3rd- Parker left in October of 2010... There's still 7 months till he gets home. I "dear John'd" him 7 and a half months into his mission. Golly, I felt like it was a long wait then... Now that it's a count down, I want to jump into overdrive and speed time up! Even though we're not dating any more, I still miss him sooo much! I can't wait to see my best friend again! My thoughts literally revolve around him lately! I came home this weekend and got really "Parker-sick." This time of year, with the warm(ish) weather, spring smells, and the sun staying out later reminds me of a lot of our adventures.

4th- 2 years ago (on March 29th) I went to Hare Krishna and had a blast. My hair was this length:

Two years later, I was too broke to go to Hare Krishna (which fell on the 24th this year) but my room did get trashed on the 29th... My friend Kelvin and I had a paper fight instead... My hair was this length:

Time goes by slow. And I guess I should take it as it comes, but I'm impatient. I feel like I'm at a stand still.

BUT still, "Kung Fu Panda" has taught me, "Yesterday's history, Tomorrow's a mystery, and Today's a gift, that's why it's called the present!"

Regrets? Never.

Ok basically I don't really understand why, but this song is amazing. Some guy learned it for me on the guitar... I didn't have feelings for him because of timing. He changed all the lyrics to fit me gender wise... so it started out, "You're the girl with a real nice smile... give it to a guy, give it to a guy... etc" And wow. It fit my life perfectly. Do I regret turning him down? No, he's in a relationship now and happy! Good for him! I'm planning on going on a mission, and happy too! But seriously, this explains almost exactly what I was going through about a month ago. I listen to this song non-stop now. Thanks, V.

He is We "Prove You Wrong"

You’re the boy with a real nice smile,

But a broken heart inside.

Give it to a girl, gave it to a girl,

And I think she lost her mind.

Are you giving up and done?

Are you through with all this?

Are you tired of the pain?

Torn to pieces.

Can you let me try?

Tell me it’s all right,

Just for one night.

Show you how to feel like,

What it feels like.

To be hugged, to be kissed.

Yes I can be that part of you.

I’ll try my best.

I’m the girl, I can make you smile,

And I promise to be true.

Give it all,

Give until there’s nothing left to lose.

Don’t say you’re giving up and done,

That you’re through with all this.

Yeah you’re tired of the pain,

Torn to pieces.

Can you let me try?

Tell me it’s all right,

Just for one night.

Show you how to feel like,

What it feels like.

To be hugged, to be kissed.

Be thought of and to be missed.

I can be that part of you,

Let me be that part of you.

I see that you’re breaking,

Your heart is breaking.

Here’s my hand if you’ll take it,

We can make it out,

Of all this mess.

No more stress.

I can be that part of you

I’ll try my best.

Give me your heart,

I don’t want a piece or a part,

I want it all.

I want you to fall,

Just a little bit.

Take that leap of faith,

If you want to,

Don’t let that broken heart haunt you.

Can you let me try?

Tell me it’s all right.

Just for one night,

Show you how to feel like.

What it feels like,

To be hugged, to be kissed.

Be thought of and to be missed.

I can be that part of you,

Let me be that part of you.

I see that you’re breaking,

Your heart is breaking.

Here’s my hand if you’ll take it,

We can make it out,

Of all this mess.

No more stress.

I can be that part of you,

I’ll try my best.

Oh-Oh.

Try my best.

(We can make it out of this mess,

No more stress.)

I can be that part of you,

I’ll try my best.

That Awkward Feeling

Seriously? Have you ever just felt like you're pulling someone's teeth by just being around them??

I feel like that everyday. At least 16/24 hours I'm home. I feel like I'm stepping on everyone's feet and I feel like I'm a pain in the butt.

I apologize wayyy more than I ever should for things that I don't even need to apologize for.

I just feel out of place.

It's kind of frustrating... I'm timid. Scared. And a wuss. That's not me!

I'm tired of feeling awkward.

Any suggestions to make me less standoffish??

How I Met Your Father

So I'm really obsessed with "How I Met Your Mother" lately! It's one of the funniest shows ever! I absolutely love it! It's got me thinking... I can relate with all of the characters... to some extent!

Ted: He's a hopeless romantic.

It's true! I, the cynic of all cynics am I hopeless romantic!

Barney: He has a catchphrases such as, "Legendary and suit up!"

One of my least favorite traits is that I always say, "I'm not gonna lie, or I can't deny it, etc." It drives everyone nuts! (Plus, he always looks good in pictures... just like me... :P)

Robin: One driven girl... focused on her career and wanting to be someone!

I'm so stoked about moving forward and the future I can see.

Marshall: He's a goof, klutzy, awkward, and a dork!

I am all of the above and maybe even worse.

Lily: She's a schemer and a listener.

I love to set people up or help people out with their problems.

I just love it. LOVE IT!

I am so excited to one day, set my kids down and tell them how I met their father. Hopefully it doesn't take a trillion hours (Poor Ted's kids). I know I'm not ready for my love story like Ted is, but when I am... It'll be wayyy better than HIMYM. :D

Recent Adventures!

These last couple of weeks have been pretty fun for me!

I got good grades this last fall semester... a 3.70 with 16 credits

When I got to my parents, I had the opportunity to go on a date:

We went bowling... I lost... :(

Then we went over to George's and made "Gingerbread" houses

This is Josh and My Gingerbread house!

It's pretty "Clutch" as he would say...

There was a frosting fight, dear Jenna (George's date) accidentally slathered frosting into my eye!

It was great fun though! :D

The next day I met up with my good old friend Alyssa and she did my hair for me.

She did a great job! My hair is darker now and I love it!

Later that night I went to Zoo Lights with Parker Alexander!

I didn't take a camera, unfortunately...

I highly suggest going a few minutes after the lights start,

by the time we got there all the animals were asleep!

Christmas was great fun!

We went and stopped by both of my brother's houses,

I got to see my nieces and nephew... ALWAYS a bonus!

Last night I went with my parents and a good friend from junior high to temple square.

This is Steven, he leaves on his mission in three weeks!

Good luck Steven!

Got any good pranks?????

Hello everyone! This might be personal, but my brother Kent and sister-in-law Kim are evil humans... They hacked my blog. Kent IS the master at clearing a room with his gaseous buttocks, I'm just surprised he'd announce it to my "MANY" readers, though. ;) I do love you all sooooo much, but if you hack my blog? Don't forget that I don't get mad... just even.

Is it love or just a gas bubble????

Hello everyone! I just want to say that I love you all sooooo very very much! This might be too personal but I have to share that I just cleared the room with my parents in it. :) Good Times!!!